Tuesday, June 07, 2005

what a summer

wow! what a summer... bora, luke weekend, nueva ecija, balesin, subic, potipot, antioch weekend! fun... :) super fun!

well, here's to another school year!

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

hoping it's real...

mission accomplished!! i hope.. hahaha. i think. :) i feel? getting there, lapit na!

Saturday, April 02, 2005

after 10...

after seeing this movie 10 times, literally, i think i know why i like it so much. it's the details of the movie that really gets to me. how the 2 click so fast yet he's so intimate with her. not really in the lustful way. actually not at all... the way they touch each other so gently and RIGHT. especially in that scene where they're in "bed" at the beach, when they "wake up"... hay. like i've been saying, the way he touches her, plays with her hair... the way she touches him... and the way they look at each other and like never rush into the kiss and stuff... the way he always looks into her eyes... haaaay!!!

HOPELESS. period.

*sigh*

it's hard...... it's really hard... :(

~I try to tell myself wake up fool; this fairy tale's got to end!!!

Friday, April 01, 2005

hot hot hot!!!

I've fallen in love with this movie... Dirty Dancing Havana Nights! i LOVE LOVE LOVE it! hahaha... I think it's the sexiest movie EVER. hahaha.. UGH! 3 times in 24 hours, including school- and Drea's party! ;) hahaha... how weird. this movie makes me happy. Dreaming is free anyway... ;)

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

smile :)

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you’ll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying?
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile



That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying?
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile... :)

so much sense, right? :) hehehe. this is like my theme song as of the moment.

last night we went to bea puyat's party. it was so nice to see everyone again especially sila tg, drea, arjo, justin! them... marts, rica. everyone! mostly the people on the luke team, since they haven't been going to antioch that much... had so much fun :) really missed spending time with them.

Sunday, March 27, 2005

fairly good day

yesterday was a fairly good day :) actually it was pretty good considering... yeah. thanks to soph, mai, rica and bea :) we went shopping and i really needed time out with other friends to take my mind of things.

but this holy week was actually very different for me. i spent a lot of time thinking and evaluating my life. been going to church more and stuff too. so maybe after doing the stations of the cross sacrificing this won't be so bad...? kaya yan. actually i don't naman have a choice eh. hahaha. but there.... i'm not going to go on about it because that's part of my sacrifice. maybe if i'm having an extra hard day you'll hear about it. hahaha... not like everyday isn't hard but yeah.. you know what i mean.

ANYWAY.....
~isn't she lovely?
hehehe. went to outreach and i taught Lovely how to read time and stuff about days-months-years. haha... it's so nice :) i'm glad mine wasn't as hard as the others though... hehehe.

okay, well that's all for now. i don't feel like talking about other things. :)

Friday, March 25, 2005

Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again

Wishing you were
somehow here again . . .
knowing we must
say goodbye . . .
Try to forgive . . .
teach me to live . . .
give me the strength
to try . . .

No more memories,
no more silent tears . . .
No more gazing across
the wasted years . . .
Help me say
goodbye.

~~ Phantom.. nice song... don't you think?

why?

why is it so hard anyway....? sometimes i think if it would be better if i just went away. then i think again if i can even do that. and i don't think i can. i think it's because i'm scared that it won't matter- it only matters to me. and i don't think i'm ready to deal with that if in any case it's true... but, i think to myself what if it is true. then i'm just being selfish.... and i don't want to be selfish. so i don't really know what to do.... nor what to think. i want to know if it's just me but at the same time i don't. because i learned that you should never ask a question if you're not ready to accept the worst possible answer. i think that's the reason why i haven't said anything. but it's killing me. everyday i have to put on this face and make people think i'm okay and happy and all that. but no, it's really hard... doing that makes it even harder than it already is. it makes me feel extra heavy inside. but what naman can i do? no choice...? no choice that i want to make yet. so, is this my fault? who knows.... could be.